Friday, May 27, 2011

Confessions of the Truest Kind

This is a post of true confessions. The truest. It's my blog, after all. I can say what I want.

This weekend, I'm feeling super lonely. Okay, pretty much all the time. I miss my mom, my sisters, their families, and my friends.  I guess that tends to happen when everyone moves away and does their separate things, leads their own lives, but that doesn't make it any easier. For years I have tried really hard to stay connected to people. Calling, sending cards, emails, inviting them places, whatnot. It's exhausting. They say that the way to have a good friend is to be one. It's not true. I hate that growing up means growing apart.

It's not that I don't go out and do things because I do. It's just more fun to do things with friends. I have met some new people, but its just not the same. People are too caught up in their lives to make friendships work. Sometimes too caught up to even care about each other. I know it's not always the case and that people just get busy, but I'm just saying that I think it sucks.

I haven't found a roommate. I'm tired of looking.  It's quiet here.  Most of the time, I enjoy my alone time and time to do the things I need to get done.  I have the TV or music on a lot. Mostly it's just to hear noise. My friends have moved and/or dissolved into oblivion. I hate it. A girl can't live on Facebook friends alone.

So, for now, I'm going to a movie. By myself. I don't care how lame that is. Maybe I'll meet a new friend.

And, friends, I still do love you. 

1 comment:

Kristin said...

I miss you too. Although we're meeting new people, it takes time to develop the friendships we left behind. Enjoy your movie, wish I could be with you. Love your guts sister.